Today is a Good Day.

Okay, I admit it. I gave in & started my morning with Christmas songs - 480 of them, to be exact!!! Who knew I have about a million- or maybe 5- versions of Adeste Fideles?!? On the way into work I had all my songs on random and I stumbled across one of Frank Sinatra's Christmas radio shows... HEAVEN! *sigh* Nothing beats all the traditional carols sung by a timeless baritone with the choir of 1940's cheese in not-quite-perfect harmony. *grin* With velvet versions of "Silent Night", "O Little Town of Bethlehem" and "Ave Maria"; make me swoon, and of course, "Let it Snow!" in big-band fashion gave me the jump start I needed, Frankie style. Add that to my morning conversation and my day started off on a VERY good note!

I'm definately in a mood for giving thanks, and this year I am especially thankful for those close few and special friends in my life - you know who you are! You have shown me unconditional love and acceptance when I didn't (and sometimes still don't) even love and accept myself... *sniffle*grin* (and now I'm all emotional at work, but it's for good reason)

Happy Turkey Day, and BRING ON THE CHRISTMAS TUNES!!!

Musings at the 3 o'clock Hour

Hm. Soul Journey email says...

Honour yourself

"I’d gone through life believing in the strength and competence of others; never in my own. Now, dazzled, I discovered that my capacities were real. It was like finding a fortune in the lining of an old coat." -- Joan Mills

Take a moment to stop and think about what you give to the people and life around you. Don’t think about what you’re not doing right. Look instead at all you do that is a blessing.

Many of us continually beat ourselves up for not doing or being enough. But imagine for a moment that you are great just as you are. Feel the relief this brings! Now open to the possibility that this is not a daydream. It’s true! Believe it!

"People become really quite remarkable when they start thinking that they can do things. When they believe in themselves they have the first secret of success." -- Norman Vincent Peale

"We cannot rise higher than our thought of ourselves." -- Orison Swett Marden

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This is a HUGE part of what I've been working on- not only for the last sleepless hour, but for the last few months; believing in myself, my potential, and being content in what I find. It's so much harder to be HONESTLY content with ones' self, let me tell you! I'm great at bringing others up around me, making them realize their full potential, and then I turn around and degrade myself to the point of tears and self-pity.

THAT IS SOOO WRONG. In so many ways!

So, now I tell myself "I have enough, I do enough, I am enough." It's a mantra I picked up from one of my SARK books, I think... and it really speaks loudly! I have all that I need to make me happy. I do more than enough to make me happy, and I most definately am all that I need to be happy. I mean, why keep trying to reach for impossible, unattainable goals and always come up disappointed?!

Easier said than done, but I'm working on it, and getting SOOO much better than I used to be.

On that note, I'm going to try to sleep for about 40 minutes before my alarm goes off...

In Repair, John Mayer Lyrics

Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new luck upon me
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

And now i'm walking in the park
All of the birds they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me

Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
Oh i'm never really ready, yeah, oh, i'm never really ready
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there