Once in a while, I don't recognize myself. I'm not sure why, or why not, rather, I just don't. Is it because I've lost 40+ pounds? Maybe... is it because I colored my hair darker than normal, and didn't add the highlights/lowlights to it? Maybe... Is it because I wore makeup yesterday and did not today? Maybe...
Is it because it's the first Monday of the new year? Or is it just one of those times when I really don't feel like I'm fitting into my own skin right now?
All of the above.
Back in 2003, I dated a man who had recently lost over 100 pounds, and he often talked about how he didn't even recognize himself in the mirror. I remember thinking it sounded a little odd, because it's not like a person wakes up 100 pounds lighter, you still see yourself every day, pound by pound.... But now, after losing less than half that amount, I get it. I get it, and I wonder if I will continue to see an unfamiliar face staring back at me as I continue down my path of losing weight. My goal is to be between 170-180. I know that still
sounds overweight, but for my frame, it is a healthy weight for me.... between a size 8-10. It's a ways off... Hell, I'm still at a size 18. I'm the only person I know who can lose over 40 pounds and go down
almost one clothing size!!!
Gotta keep it up though. I'm fixing to run the Hot Chocolate 5k again - and this time I want to be able to jog/run it, not walk most of the 3.some-miles. I CAN DO IT. 45 minutes is my time to beat!
