A bit delayed, but Wednesday Wonders...

I wonder why my heart decides to race.

Wendesday I went to my friend's house, had a wonderful dinner & delightful conversation, and as we were watching Mythbusters and relaxing, when my chest had a cramp and BAM! my heart started doing it's thing, beating at over 200 bpm! Chi's mom has a blood pressure cuff, so we put that on- 111/103, and 208 bpm. NOT GOOD. I took my meds, and 30 minutes later- with my heart still strong and steady at 200 bpm... Chi, bless her heart, took me to the ER.

Once we got there, every nurse and doctor who saw my BP and HR didn't believe the machines and kept taking my vitals over and over again. It took almost 45 minutes for 3 nurses to get 1 IV in my arm, and I have 5 bruised pin-pricks to proove it! The veins all but close down when there's not enough blood in the heart.

The diagnosis is supraventrical tachycardia, SVT, and to fix it they had to stop my heart and restart it again. SCARY. With 2 nurses holding my hands, and a doc massaging my carotid artery, they put medication into my tube in two different places... 1-2-3-- go. I was breathing normally, and then the heart monitor went silent, flatlined, and then I gasped and the monitor started beeping again- much, much slower. Just like they warned me, after about 2 breaths, it felt like 1000 lbs pressed through my body right to the floor, and that was it. My heart rate was down to 99, and stablized at 99 bpm for about 45 minutes before I was discharged.

Poor Chi! She was out of the room when they explained what the two medications would do, she got back as everyone was huddled around my bed, and then she saw my monitor flatline! I can only imagine how scared she would have been for those 10 seconds or so.

I went in for 1/2 day of work yesterday, and am just relaxing at home today. I'm not going to work any overtime this weekend either- of course, it means I'll have to make it up next week, but I don't want to push myself back into doing anything too soon. As soon as I'm done with this, I'm going to make an appointment with my cardiologist...

Wednesday Wonders

A really good friend of mine just had her boyfriend break up with her, out of the blue. They'd been together for quite some time, taken vacations and weekend getaways together, and things were getting pretty serious... and then BAM! Gone.

I wonder if people have always suffered love-lost so frequently, or if today's culture and society preaches individuality and freedom to the point where it creates an environment that encourages people to run from any commitments. It seems like- every time I turn around- another one of my friends who's been in a long-term relationship is now sitting there left with broken dreams and shadows of what was...

Sometimes I'm really grateful that I'm NOT seeing anyone right now. I couldn't handle another broken heart.

Humpty Dumpty Fell Off the Wall

This photo is an eye opener for me.

I know my weight has fluctuated quite a bit since I left PLU, and I'm down another 2 lbs, which is exciting, but then I see photos of me and realize I need to focus more.... and more.... and MORE! I'm not going to shy away from these photos, because they are wonderful memories, and I realize that my friends love me even though I am heavier than anyone else in my groups of friends. Thank you for that, because there are days when I don't love myself. We all say it, but I really do mean it- I wish I had known then (high school) what I know now (ten years later)- I never would have let myself gain the weight I did, because it seems IMPOSSIBLE to lose now!

So, I think I look like humpty dumpty here... *sigh* I hate to think about what I looked like a few months & 12 lbs ago!

Let's use this as a "go" point. It will be my frame of reference for where I never want to be again, and I will use this- and a few other pictures- to track my progress...

Wednesday Wonders

I am in total wonder and awe at the massage I just had tonight.... *happy sigh*

My afternoon started totally crappy- got into it with the Massage Envy in Tacoma and the wording they use in their contract versus leymans' terms, ended up going into the one in Federal Way to get some clarification (because I was so frustrated with Tacoma that I couldn't even speak!)

The manager at the Fed Way location saw my side of the contract interpretation and was able to schedule me with an appointment the same evening... the massage was wonderful!!! In college, I gave quite a bit of massages and one of my friends said that my massages were better than *blush* "ahem". My response to him was "Ha- you're not "ahem" with the right people!"

Today, I realized what he meant.
*happy sigh*

Memory Lane

I'll write more about these later...