Wednesday Wonders

I wonder when my heart will STOP racing for no apparent reason?!?! 

Yesterday, at lunch, my face went sort of numb & tingly.  Then my heart started beating faster and faster.... up to 180 bpm.  The guys at work were a little freaked out, that's for sure!  My supervisor is great, she offered to take me home.  My mom actually came down, she was going to drive me home but I was afraid of leaving my car here at the office.... by that time, my heart rate was down around 90 bpm, so I drove home with a watchful Mom following me back to their house. 

Stanley, God love him, crawled right up on my chest and licked and licked and licked my face... silly dog that he is. 

Today, I'm tired.  A little loopy from the meds still working out of my system. 

I know I've said it before, but what if- just what if- we only have so many heartbeats per life time?!  I try not to think about it...

Wednesday Wonders

What's so wonder-filled about a Wednesday? 

Not much today, unfortunately.  I'm tired, pretty sure it has something to do with my allergies.  I got into an arguement with a co-worker, and it was more like fighting with a brother over, well, logistics.  It's got me in a down-right sour mood now. 

I wonder, is it Friday yet?

I Hear Music... Mighty Fine Music

Music is always in my head, and it helps me to relate to life, process what life throws at me.

So, I've been feeling a little blue since Wednesday courtesy of the let down of the "first date"... (still not going to blog about it.)  I've been listening to my music, realizing just how much of a hopelessly hopeful romantic I am, and my favorite song from Jewel's lullaby CD came on:

Forever and a Day


The other day you asked me to
Tell you how much I love you.
Oh but words so often fail,
To describe the depth and scale,
and even though it may sound cliche,
I'll tell you now in my simple way.


My love is as true as the oceans are blue,
and I always feel this way.
Just listen to the beating that keeps repeating
My heart wants to say
Like Gala and Dali, it's you and me,
Forever and a day.
Forever and a day,
Always

You watch me turn out the light,
Wrap my arms around you, say good night.
Trace our shadows on the wall.
Thank God for the miracle of it all.


My love is as true as the oceans are blue,
and I always feel this way.
Just listen to the beating that keeps repeating
My heart wants to say
Like Gala and Dali, it's you and me,
Forever and a day.
Forever and a day,
Always


The road of life winds
With the passing of time.
I can hear you say,
"How can hearts know
where love will go
beyond today?"

My love is as true as the oceans are blue,

and I always feel this way.
Just listen to the beating that keeps repeating
My heart wants to say
Like Gala and Dali, it's you and me,
Forever and a day.
Forever and a day,
Always

The next song?  Cotton Eye Joe.  I just about jumped out of my chair, it was such a complete contrast from the mellow song I was listening to before!  DOH!

Don't Wanna Talk About It....

... so don't ask about the date.

Thanks.

Wednesday Wonders (observed)

LOL- I know that it's not Wednesday, but I can't currently think of anything else to title this entry, so there you go. 

I wonder when I will be able to be okay not being David's friend.  It's his birthday today, and I had to literally say- out loud- "NO" when my mind asks if I should send him a quick birthday email.  Now, I haven't thought about doing this for almost 4 years, but.... and this is why my mom has always said about herself too.... I forget that I'm supposed to be mad at someone!  Can you believe it?  After everything, I'm ready to forgive and welcome him back into my heart?! 

Sheesh! 

Maybe it's because he's opened the door up a few times, sent a little email here or there.... but, after he renounced our friendship, I made a pact with myself to always guard my heart a little better.  Guess this shows I'm ready and willing to chuck that out the window....

So, there.  That's my thought for today.

♫♪ Take Me Out to the Ball Game! ♪♫

I have lots to dump today.... it's a Monday.  I'm "Float" at work, which basically means I'm on call/handle random post-entitlement stuff.  It's been relatively peaceful, suprisingly!!! 

There's no real "dump" as in getting stuff off my chest, so much as it is a "brain dump"... things buzzing around in my head like the bumble bees that were all over the rhododendron at my parents' house this weekend. 

YAY! for baseball season!!!  I love baseball sooo much!  I've already picked some of the games I want to see at Safeco Field- Viva Las Vargas Night- FREE ELVIS SUNGLASSES!  King Felix Knit Cap Night, Stitch 'n' Pitch, and the Salute to Latin American Beisból Night.  Yeah! 

I have my first real date since.... who-knows-how-many-years... coming up on Wednesday!!!  I am so-so-sooo excited!  Hopefully it won't be terrible.  Hopefully he won't run the other way, or never call me again.  Hopefully he will like me enough to go on a second, and third, and forth.... etc.... date.  I'm so nervous too!  Almost wish I was living in a dorm in college, or with roommates, so I could have someone to help me get ready, someone to talk to about it all, someone to tell me to stop worrying.... ya know?!  But no.  I'm meeting him after work at a sports bar by his place.  Low-key, casual... I will let you know how it goes.

Work has finally fallen into a do-able rhythm for me, which is nice.  At the TSC, I was able to multi-task and organize and plan and execute so many things while still doing the absolute best at my job, and it took me almost a year and a half to get the CR job into any sort of "flow".  Of course, it helped when I made the committment to work 9-10 hour days, and to work every Saturday that was available.  Now that Congress and Senate are at a stalemate with our budget and those extra hours are gone, it'll be a challenge to keep things going so smoothly, but I think I can do it. 

Last, but not least for now, I have figured out what has been causing so much intense foot pain, and what caused the injury to my right heel/ankle/foot.  My fabulous, waterproof, bright red, Norwegian shoes don't fit my foot right, and tweak something just enough to damage/injure the bottom ligament and arch of my foot.  Now that I know what's causing the pain, I can start to make it better- of course, it means no more cool Norwegian shoes. *sad face* 

That's all for now.  I promise I will be better about writing!